Amie's mom came from the USA for a visit ^_^

Four frogs sat upon a log that lay floating on the edge of a river. Suddenly the log was caught by the current and swept slowly down the stream. The frogs were delighted and absorbed, for never before had they sailed.

At length the first frog spoke, and said, "This is indeed a most marvelous log. It moves as if alive. No such log was ever known before."

Then the second frog spoke, and said, "Nay, my friend, the log is like other logs, and does not move. It is the river, that is walking to the sea, and carries us and the log with it."
And the third frog spoke, and said, "It is neither the log nor the river that moves. The moving is in our thinking. For without thought nothing moves."

And the three frogs began to wrangle about what was really moving. The quarrel grew hotter and louder, but they could not agree.

Then they turned to the fourth frog, who up to this time had been listening attentively but holding his peace, and they asked his opinion. And the fourth frog said, "Each of you is right and none of you is wrong. The moving is in the log and the water and our thinking also, but if you look still deeper then nothing has moved, because nothing can move and there is nowhere to move."

And the three frogs became very angry, for none of them was willing to admit that his was not the whole truth and that the other two were not wholly wrong; and they were not ready to think that they didn't know, and this fourth foolish frog -- he knows? It was against their egos.

Then the strange thing happened -- this has always been happening: the three frogs got together and pushed the fourth frog off the log into the river.

It is very difficult to see; when truth knocks at your door, it is very difficult to open the door and receive the guest, and welcome the guest -- because when truth knocks at your door, suddenly you become aware that you have been living up to now with lies, that up to now you have been untrue, that all your declarations were false and all your dogmas were false. When truth comes face to face with you, suddenly your whole life is nullified.

- by Osho

The mind is like this. Someone says I am wrong, but I am never wrong, am I? In my case I would never pick a side - so I was always right (this is not the same as saying that both are right and both are wrong). I thought this was a good way, to prevent conflict, but recently my Teacher expressed this as a deep pattern of mine: being 'avoidant', running away, trying to escape the present.

I had been guiding one-on-one Yoga class and carefully selected postures that could not worsen my client's area of pain. At that moment, I was also ignoring the pain in my body. The feelings, thoughts, wants... that wanted to come up and be released, I was pressing down. Even in my client's body, how could that tension be relaxed if I am ignoring it? These repressions need to be brought to awareness in order to move beyond them.

When my Teacher indicated this pattern I had, I justified my actions - I covered it up once more - I had pushed the fourth frog into the river.

How can I see/understand what she is saying if I do not want to see it?

I felt overwhelmed with the thought that I would not be able to see it. I tried to think it through in my Mind.

For some reason I kept coming back to this story that my Teacher had recently posted - and then a sharp pain came during Asana (Yoga class) and suddenly I saw this pain - my pride of being "right" - this avoidance was just refusing to see my ego. Just like in the story - the voices refusing to accept all the falsities created in Mind - thereupon it could not be detected with Mind, only in the gap of 'no-mind', of Yoga.

Truth keeps knocking

My Teacher's words shake me but they are showing me the way. Something she shared with me: 

I know you are tired but come, this is the way  - Rumi